Call Me Up

Call Me Up

Sitting at your feet in dingy robes

Faded, ripped and torn from life and sin

Without the river, without love or hope

Will it ever flow in me again?

Pressure on my shoulders- bow my head

Shame dripping from my bared dirty mind

What will You say? My heart full of dread.

To kick me as a dog would be as kind.

I wait, and wait for you to speechify

I wait for judgment, hopelessness I feel.

I sense your eyes upon me up so high

So lift my head in silence as I kneel.

But you aren’t angry as I had supposed

Your eyes are kind, shining with your tears.

A wave of subtle hope and sweet repose

And rivers break down walls composed of fears.

Joyous love, I see forgiveness gleam

From your white and shining holy being.

And from your face a blazing glory beam

I can not stand; your face I am seeing.

Now you take my hand- with your hands of steel.

Your strength flows into me with every touch.

You break the barriers and every wound you heal,

You transform me, how could it be you love so much?

My Friend

I knew it would happen, we’d carry apart

The halves of our lives which had not had a start

I knew that I loved you, but wouldn’t admit

Though you always said we were a perfect fit

Someday I will realize the reasons for this,

But right now I only see what went amiss.

I tried to say no, and because you were there

It was always easy to just enough care.

I used your heart badly, for only my good

You pushed me ‘til I began thinking I should.

I told you everything, and you did the same

We tried to be friends but it ended a game.

I miss you already, and I’m sad to say bye.

I guess that we will meet again in the sky.

The seasons will go by, but always I’ll see

Your face in the sunshine, smiling at me