Fade

I'll fade out slowly
Don't want to hurt you now
A friend couldn't have been better
But I'll remember I vow

Now I know there's something deep
Inside the Venn our lives have had
But darlin’ you should let me go
Silently, so you won't be sad.

Precious face staring at the stars
We had so many good times
And I'll always wink at your heart
Because I know how it rhymes

And I'll watch you grow up
And I'll watch you smile
And I'll watch til I know that
You haven't thought of me for awhile

And I'll fade out slowly
So the light can shine again
On the lives of those around me
Remove my shadow and my rain.

Dance in the raindrops
And add to them with tears
Til my lonely spirit fills the air
And my body fills the years.

I'll fade so you don't notice,
I'll fade out right away
And so when you forget me
It'll free another ray

Shine on my darling sunlight,
Let droplets catch your rays
Bring color to the atmosphere
And forget me all your days.

Meant

You hurt me cause you were hurt yourself
You hurt me because you had no one else.
It's alright to be twisted and hurt inside
When they all say it's not enough to try

When your best is never the right way
And your mistakes always fail their day
So you try again and do your best,
But still can't keep up with the rest.

Then you don't try your best anymore
Because you are tired, weary, and sore
So you're guilty for not and guilty for,
And nothing can help, so you back away from the door.

You go inside yourself, cause that's where you're free
To be who you are, who He made you to be.
And they mock your silence, and you hurt again,
But your hurt doesn't hurt as much as holding their hand

So you let go, face up, and outwards to all
But let those who know they know everything fall
You don't know much, but some is enough
And you may be hard, but your heart's not all tough.

There are plenty of tears to be made that still wait
For their precious chance to help determine your fate
And there are plenty of smiles to give and to take
But if you're like me, you're done with the fake.

It's alright to leave, it's alright to stay
It's alright to say that you are not okay
It's alright to say no, it's alright to say yes
Its alright to believe, it's alright to confess.

So don't let them bottle you up in a jar
That doesn't fit the shape of who you are.
But don't hurt others, because someone hurt you
Just ignore them and do what you're meant to do.

Go

Creaky wheel I will follow
You're in my dreams
I dream til morn,
Of frigid mountain streams

Waywardly again til hollow
I carve the road
And stop to stare
At each butterfly and toad

Misty o'er the lake's rills mellow
A shallow rift
I try to watch
Each shadow slowly lift

Zephyr makes the dawn its fellow
And shivering
I pull close
To you, my sweater, whispering

Speak Slow

You're a baby in a man's body
You've never had to fight
The battle always stayed away
 And you have always been right.

But baby don't you come
To the place you thought was home
Cause it'll be a lot harder
Than the paths you already roam.

You look down your nose at me
Your wisdom overwhelms
I've crawled down the paths of life
You've flown past each hard realm

I cringe at every word you speak
Each humble exortation
Because whether right or wrong its wrong
When you have no compassion.

Everybody has hard times,
And everyone thinks they know.
Yours are quite a bit different than mine,
So when you speak, speak slow.

Windowsill

Your life is on the up and up

Mine is dripping down the windowsill

Catching dust as the drops

Seep into the mildewed cracks

I peek around the corner and brace myself to find

My dreams were true

And all is not well

So I wish in the well that used to be

And carry the dreams 

I used to have like burdens

Instead of wings

But I'll carry them

If just to let them die

In the right time and place

And get old with them

Watch sunsets and sigh

But avoid mirrors and my face

And I'll come home in many years

You'll all be old

And I'll have stories

To tell the dust 

Streaked windowpanes